I don’t do woe is me posts , I do my best to always be happy and get on with it. However even I have to question why with 713 alleged friends on FB and 129 followers I never get hear from so few , let alone get asked to do anything.

Once you are no longer in a position of authority its amazing how quickly your popularity sinks. never mind I’ll continue to go shoot some photos on my own or do my own thing on my own, after all its my destiny.




I have a new camera, I treated myself for a recent Birthday, It’s not the latest model but it is my first DSLR and so far I have had great fun with it. I have yet to shoot Sunsets which are my favourite , something I hope to do soon.

I didnt realise though just how big DSLR JPEGs are as each photo is a min of 8meg. It’s a learning curve that is keeping me sane.


I am worried, I won’t show it or won’t even mention it on mainstream social media but I am worried.

The latest news on proposals for elderly care and their own property is alarming and has personal implications. I’ve not said much about my situation but I am looking after an elderly relative at home. Each day there are new challenges and also good days & bad days. Some are very dark and as I am an only child I fear for my future and whether my situation now means that going back to work will be even possible let alone how to make it work.

Unrelated but I’m just watching Philomena on BBC2 I never saw it in 2013 when it was released.

Here we are again

So it’s been awhile and following on from last August’s post I’d love to say there’s been a spate of contact but sadly there hasn’t.

Christmas was interesting, I watched everyone on Social Media talk about where they were going and share photos and comments of their events, yet not one chose to send me an invite to come along.

I guess it really is true that once you leave anywhere you are no longer considered one of the gang or even someone to be associated with at all. Given this has happened twice to me now I guess I shouldn’t really be surprised even though I always pass comment or suggestions on others pages so at least they know I am still alive I hope. It is making it hard trying to think what I do about my future as while I don’t mind my own company I am fed up of being totally alone and out of any relationship for so long.

Therefore there won’t be an Party , well accept for a Party of one for a significant birthday I have coming up in a few months, unlike my 40th when there were loads of people present.

Am I bothered, truthfully probably not I just mention it in case anyone is that interested that I am still here.

Life has been interesting , after taking a year out , an elderly relative suffered a life changing injury which left me to sort out their care and support, something my last role taught me a lot about.

Now that I am ready to return to work, it seems no one is remotely interested and what I’ve heard from others about being this age and looking is definitely true having made countless applications for roles that I have over 20 years of experience in, only to be not even granted an interview.

The question is what do I do next? Do I keep looking in what has been my loved career of almost 30 years or give it up completely and do something completely different, the jury is out.

I wish I could do something with my Photography, I have over 46 million views on my photos on flickr  , granted many of them are street photos as I love taking candid photos or transport, I can’t see myself earning much from it though and also am still not ready to consider going self employed. So back to the searching it is then, do wish me luck!


Time Keeping

I cannot stand bad time keeping. Today I agreed to meet someone at 2pm. I rang them at 2.15pm to discover they had allegedly just left home. I rang them again at 3pm and they had allegedly only just got to somewhere that at best was 30 mins for them. They finally arrived at 3.45PM.

I am far past the anger stage and just let it go , however I continue to pride myself on always being early and never late or at least honesty when things go wrong. It’s not hard to make a call, or is it?



Can anyone explain to me how this Friends thing is supposed to work? I have over 600 “Friends” on Facebook and nearly 3 times that many followers on Twitter, yet those I interact with and who actually interact with me I could count on my fingers and toes.

I get that People have busy lives, mine is busy , even without employment, yet what has happened to actually asking how you are doing or How about that Coffee ?

Instead its a like on a Sunset Photo if I am lucky and banter with a small group of regular followers and contibuters only. So why are the rest of them actually there?

I accept some feel they should remain out of an obligation perhaps as we were former work colleagues, however what is wrong with a Hello or even a mention instead of me making all of the effort. I am reluctant to remove as then I could end up like a Billy No Mates, well maybe not quite that bad ….

An Overdue Update

So here it is , the update as to what has happened and where I am now.

I was made redundant for the second time in September last year after taking the option of redundancy over a substantial paycut which would have left me working for less than what I earnt 20 years ago.

I decided to take sometime off. Not at all being bigheaded but as I could afford to I did so and what started out as a 3 month rest extended to a 6 month rest and now almost a year, although I have looked and am still looking for new roles I am being choosy whilst I can afford to as I now have Care obligations and responsibilities for an elderly relative.

I have not been idle, I have continued in all of my Community Volunteer Roles, I have also pursued my love of Photography even more and learnt lots more. I haven’t travelled much however have got more involved with some vehicle restorations too.

I am now looking more seriously again and would prefer to stay in Property Management , Housing Management or Extra Care as I have a wealth of knowledge of now almost 30 years in all to offer, so we’ll see what happens.

My biggest threat this time around is my age as I am learning that experience doesn’t always put you at the front of a selection process as Employers think you are too old to learn, which isn’t the case or aren’t open to new ideas which couldn’t be further from the truth. I’ve also prided myself in being aware and following current thinking and practices plus getting involved in discussions and chats on Social Media as appropriate.